Saturday, August 16, 2008

Missing Arielle

The first night at the hospital, I had to let Arielle spend the night with her babysitter (first night ever she slept away from home) as Jon spent the night with me. She was ok apparently. But I was told that the next day her mood just changed. She refused to eat, refused to sleep and so on. So that the second night, Jon decided to bring her home. When Jon told me, tears just weld up in my eyes...my poor little girl. She was over the moon when Jon went to pick her up. She could not wait. Jon was told that every few minutes she would be going to the gate to check if Pa Pa had arrived.

I am missing spending time with Arielle the most during confinement. I miss being with Jon and her on our weekend nights out. I miss holding one side of her hand and her look as she looks up to both of us with a sweet smile telling us that she is enjoying her night out. I miss carrying her whenever she said "pau pau" as I can't carry her right now until my wound is fully recovered. I hope she understands that and not think that I do not want to carry her anymore. I miss being with her at Sunday School and Musikgarten class but its also good time for Jon to spend much more time with his daughter. I have got two more weeks to the end of confinement and I pray I will be totally recoverd by then to spend time with her. But then I have Aaron to care for so I am not sure how my routine will be. Oh well, take one step at the time and leave the rest to God.

4 comments:

Julie said...

I guess every mom faced the same dilemma when #2 arrived. That's why I'm still contemplating when is the right time to plan for #2?

Dini said...

ya i agree...even a friend of mine who had her no. 2 this year and stayed in a confinement house thruout said she cried almost everyday missing her no. 1 kid. I think no matter what we as mothers will surely miss our children eh?

Ann said...

maybe get Arielle involved in the taking care of Aaron and I guess she can still lie beside you (if she can do so quietly!:)) and you can still talk to her and sing to her??

I mean I am imagining the picture in my mind. Don't know if it is actually possible!

Sigh....so that is what having #2 is about huh! Please tell me more...

Dini said...

ya will try that when I take care of Aaron full time then but I dun thk so it will work. Arielle is just so active, she would want to dance and move around one before she sleeps.

The plan is Arielle & Aaron will sleep in separated rooms until Aaron sleeps thru the nite...i pray soon man.

At the moment during my confinement , its still ok as I can still see Arielle to bed though Jon actually puts her to bed.